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2011-10-03T18:55:00.002+08:00

Yay got my planner today!!!!

there was 25% off, so it costs only 22.40 :D

Yay! I saved uhm, a total of 7.50 :D

So now, I'm gna work hard for eoys (hopefully!)

& my math 2 has hope!

I'm good in trigo 2/3 & quad inequalities & functions but i suck terribly at functions & polynomials and maybe log.

& aiya, from the looks of things, i'll do not too badly for eoys cause i heard functions is easy and the main focus is on trigo 2/3 and quad inequalities and functions are tested at a moderate level.

So.. yay!

2011-09-23T22:38:00.005+08:00

NUUUUUUUUUUUUU.

I REALLY WANT (A) ...

-Kikki.K 2012 planner

-Pretty notebooks

-Pencilcase

Awww man, I hope my mum reads this & then she'll give them to me hehehhee

2011-09-20T21:47:00.002+08:00

I'm not good at expressing myself...

I keep my feelings to myself...

It's not that I don't love anyone but to my family & my friends I love,

I just cannot tell them that I love them & show them that I care.

I just can't & I give the impression that I don't give a fk.

Sigh, It's been like this since forever.

It's seems like I have some disability or smth :(

I need to learn how to express my feelings ASAP.

2011-09-18T23:01:00.001+08:00

I THINK I LOOK REALLY CUTE W MY NEW HAIR HEHEHHEE.

i look like a xiao mei mei from sec 1 ahhahaha.

Whatever, if you don't agree, too bad.

2011-09-17T09:52:00.002+08:00

yay removed my bite!!!

So happy, didn't squeak ytd during my cad.

But anw, like almost towards the end of my cad, at the easiest part, I started playing w my throat.

Like wtf???

Then I couldn't play anymore wtfff..

& lester said there were weird sounds coming from my throat.

lmao, my poor pharynx.

The last time that happened was when we hardcored before SYF,

and yeh, yk had it too woohoo so i wasn't the only one.

But Terence said it's because i didn't drink water.

I guess it's time for me to buy a water bottle then.

But anw, I'm extremely happy that I got rid of my bite.

Woohoo.

Exercising your mouth does work.

Now that eoys are around the corner, fml.

2011-09-13T19:32:00.002+08:00

Ytd was the worst day of my life.

I practiced like ~2hr before band & thn when I went for band, I guess I was too tired (my embou), cause i fking bite, then i squeaked like ten thousand times.

My cadenza was badly played & the look on mr ng's face was simply, sigh.

I squeaked like ten thousand times and I had not enough air to make the notes come out.

And, I just couldn't play.

Omg shld not have practiced but that's not the key issue here.

I have to stop biting.

Omg someone save me pls.

Becuz of my biting, I have teeth marks on my gums and it hurts & usually, I can only play clarinet for about 1~2 hours and I can't play the next day. I have to wait till the third.

That means I'll die for sojourn & band camp.

Pls pls pls no!!!

Must stop biting & evrything will be fine.

HOW? omg.

& jonathan was like asking me what happened to my cadenza.

When i first practiced (he was thr) & it was like 10000 times better than ytd.

Oh god.

He said I screwed up badly this time.

Sigh meh meh.

Must redeem myself.

2011-09-07T20:37:00.002+08:00

Sigh, I think i'll never get to love school.

Hols have been spent @ the school, for band, for supp classes.

Man, I hate my life.

& at home, i'm just slacking & yesterday,

someone told me that there's 3 weeks left to eoys.

wtf?????????

& yeh, ppl have started mugging.

Honestly, I don't plan to study, maybe i'll just do last minute work like last year!

Hey for my eoys, I got A+ for 3 subbys despite last minute work k!

But the rest were damn screwed.

Like 2 Cs, so my eoys results were damn extreme but LOL, 3A+s out of 6subjects.

No joke k! :)

But sigh, I'm gna fail.

There's 10000 formulas to remember for math??

& chem omg, so many fking things to remember!!!

I just want a cheatsheet for that 2 subjects!

Pretty please................

it sucks how I can never be totally honest with people.

2011-09-04T06:37:00.001+08:00

"Don't give it away"

2011-09-04T06:03:00.007+08:00

So yep, it was a blast!

Had loads of fun & I love my group "Dora the Explorer"

LOL MAX!!!

First night was spent uh, singing like mad, playing games like werewolf etc!

Slept on the cold hard floor & woke up aching like some old woman.

Oh well, my delicate body~

Second day was spent uh, i can't rmb but while everyone was at Pasir Ris Park preparing,

I was slacking in the chalet LOL cause i fetched Lester & Yu Kun while the rest was leaving.

Subsequently, it was the chalet games :)

Lastly,

You wanna fight?

(Totally copied & paste the links off fb!!!)

After chalet games was prep for BBQ!

Set up the fire w wenpo & slacked away the rest of the barbecue.

The night was spent w Ngee Siang sleeping away, while terence, yukun and i sang while the rest of the y3s went bowling LOL!

Subsequently, we were bored & terence and yukun decided to sleep until i thought of something to do LOL.

Went to watch teevee but i got bored and snuck out.

Yukun stalked me D:

Walked him back to the chalet cause he didn't wna let me go alone!!!

Then i snuck out again & took a good walk around pasir park/dte!

hehe so fun!

Came back at 4+ to find most of the ppl sleeping with some watching uh final destination LOL

So yeh, & we slept, slacked & terence, yukun and i had lunch at some Streats which cost us $60! D:

& that sums up band chalet.

Slept from 2-3pm & woke up at 3+ am.

So hungry D:

2011-08-28T21:31:00.003+08:00

I just wna migrate & get away from this hellhole as soon as possible.
So tired of all this bullcrap.

Sigh, yeh, i know, i do have an escapist attitude,
but sorry, i'm not a strong girl,
i don't know how to handle things or make things right.

I know there's something wrong with me & hence, issues with friendships/ interpersonal relationships,
but if someone doesn't tell me what's wrong then how do i fix it?
Srsly?
Criticising me/ hating me won't help the situation, not even a bit.

& I'm migrating already,
do i have to ruin every single relationship that's left here in SG?
Do i have to make it like there's nothing left worth staying for in SG?

I mean like, I love my friends but I don't know why I can't stop feeling pissed at them, hating them.
Yeh & I'm sure they hate me too, a certain few.
Like fuck la srsly.

As for some friends, they're rlly great but i'm just taking them for granted.
See? That's the issue with me.
Ppl who treat me well, i just take them for granted
while i fuss over the rest who well, don't really like me.
So just fk me & my life srsly.

& i'm so sorry i'm not pretty, smart, capable enough, to meet up to your expectations.
I'm nvr good enough & i'm fully aware of that.

Y'know, being talentless SUCK big time.
I'm like good in nothing & honestly, ppl like me should vanish.

& sigh,

I don't think I can bring myself to trust humans anymore,

you've marred my trust in humanity.

& i hate boys & that will never change,

not at least for now.

Boys are the most complicated beings on Earth,

& death awaits you if you incur their wrath, srsly.

2011-08-22T00:20:00.003+08:00

Contented.

Finally.

& so, recently, life has taught me alot.

Some people are out to destroy you,

& they derive joy from your misery.

Sigh.

I hate Singapore and i can't wait to get out of here.

2011-08-05T23:53:00.003+08:00

I'm really confused.

Why didn't you tell me earlier?

What if i didn't find out?

Are you just gna keep me in the dark?

&...

It's like I mean nothing to you at all.

As much as I would like you to well, perhaps show me that I mean something to you,

but that's just my wishful thinking.

Had lunch @ Macs w my financial lit grp since we won a $1 macs voucher each LOL hahaha!!!!

So my grp consisted of 4boys, 2 girls and that other girl had some other plans alr so,

I was some slut with 4 other boys.

oh yea manz.

Went back to school for stocktake w wenpo afterwards,

& we met a shallow bunch of guys afterwards who were like well, teasing and stuff.

SHALLOW.

Stocktaking was fun.

Heh.

Subsequently, Yukun & I went over to wenpo's house.

Omg, Max is so damn cute !!!

HAHAHA & Wenpo's dad is funny.

He went "Sam!" then tingyu and wenpo were like "It's not Sam!! You were the one who named it leh"

Then he went "Mac!!!" Then they said the same thing again.

hAhahaha, their family is so cute.

So we watched wenpo and tingyu bathe the dog.

Omg so kute.

So i wna get a retriever/maltese/toy poodle.

Hope i'll be the one who gets to choose the breed :'(

Fingerscrossed!

Angsty

2011-08-01T23:38:00.002+08:00

You're so fking superficial and shallow, you should just burn in hell.

You're so full of yourself, you should srsly wake up.

If you continue being such an asshole, all your friends will leave you and you'll end up being a pathetic loner.

So angry with the world and nth seems to not piss me off.

Well, meeting you today was really great :)

I've never been so happy in awhile.

So SP was a total disaster.

Spent like the whole SP time correcting two bars.

K la, 80% of the time.

Like wtf, I'm damn irritated alr.

Wasting my time on this kind of shit.

zzzzzzzz,

& I need to get more practice.

I sound so fking awful

Sian maxxxx.

Nvm, 156.25 hrs of SP/band woohoo.

And if i do self prac, yay!! I can rch much more than that.

& lol, it was quite funny how someone sounded like a dying elephant.

It was rlly bad but lol.

Cause I never know

2011-07-31T23:45:00.003+08:00

Really hate school right now...

Praying hard to get into JMSS.

If I do get in, it's gna be a great schl.

It's a good schl + the uniform's pretty nice so yea.

The only thing that will be keeping me from leaving DHS is band.

I love band so much, it's like a major part of my life already.

but my hatred for DHS/Sg is just too much to keep me here in SG.

Hate the curriculum, hate the teachers.

They just make my life so, so miserable.

Being SL really sucks.

I really need to practice, so fking badly but yet, I can't.

Deal with it, Cheryl.

& yes, I don't know someone's making my life so miserable.

Sigh, I don't know what's wrong with him but I really regret getting to know him.

But I'll be fine, I just know it.

On a lighter note, mum will be going to aussie from 5-13 aug or smth.

& she's gna be going to aussie in sept again.

hooray for freedom!!!

Bottomline: Schl still sucks & i hate this world

2011-07-06T22:19:00.002+08:00

Unimportant, insignificant.

That's me, that's why no one cares.

Always the second alternative, always the back up plan.

I fking hate this world & i wna burn down the whole of Singapore.

Ha.ha.ha.

I wna kill every single person wtff.

& ugh, some ppl think they're better than me? Omg please.

Just look at your grades before you come and say anything.

I rlly wna strangle you.

You're so disgusting and everything...

And idk what's wrong with me,

but i'm rlly mean to a certain someone.

That person's irritating, yes.

Constantly trying to fit in, which becomes a major turn off...

but that person's done nthing wrong?

Why am i so mean.

& fake, yes that's me.

I can't believe it.

I just wna KEEL myself.

t(-.-t) to the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

big girls don't cry

2011-06-18T20:02:00.003+08:00

I rlly hate this fking world.

& yes, there's a high chance that i won't be able to migrate

oh what great joy, i'll get to enjoy more quality time in sg w shitty ppl.

ha ha ha.

I know i'm stupid, i'm foolish

but i'm human and i have feelings too ok.

I need some respect from you all too.

like wtf?????

I rlly wna be mean back to you guys but..............................

it'll hurt you guys.

see get what i mean?

they don't care about hurting me and yet, i still care for them.

foolish or stupid? -_-

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

fk this world.

& i hate being a second option.

which i am to like every single person who's important to me.

Thanks alot.

But I think you feel it too

2011-06-15T23:15:00.003+08:00

1st day of band camp's over.

Really tired :o!!

Oh well, at least i found out that my lowest E is sharp like anyth lolololol.

Found more ppl to hate today.

lol, my life sucks.

After band was dinner w yukun & terence.

Sigh, yukun is one weird dick hahaha.

& i don't understand why terence always see my embarassing moments @.@

OH & I RLLY LIKE HAPPY LEMON'S LEMON YAKULT/GREEN T YAKULT.

THE COMBINATION IS SO (Y)!

I hate it when ppl force me to make choices.

& when i don't choose what they want me to, they get upset @ me.

Lol, then don't force me?

Eh wtf, I don't deserve to be stuck in the middle can?

K maybe i do.

Sigh, hope band wld be good tmr :-)

I wanna fall with you again

2011-06-14T15:45:00.003+08:00

So for the first time in my life, I feel alone...

I miss my family.

They're all in Australia...

It feels like they're one big happy family & I'm not part of it -Sigh-

I miss my sister's embrace, where I would cuddle with her at night at times.

I miss my brother's care for me. He nvr fails to care for me and protect me.

I miss them so much...

& now we're almost all grown up, 20, 17 & 15.

Being apart from them, I hope I don't drift away from them.

They're the best siblings one could possibly have.

& i love them with all my heart.

As for my dad, I really miss him too.

I regret being such a rude ass when he was with me in Singapore.

As for mum, she's always with me,

& altho, i'm pissed off w her @ times,

i really love her alot...

I can't wait to go to Australia to be with my family,

but what about the friends here?

I'll definitely miss every single one of them.

Altho I don't look like I care, but I actlly do.

I'm just not someone who will express it...

& I hate myself for being such a fool.

Being 15, I should be wise enough.

But I just keep committing the same mistakes over & over again...

& shopping is just killing me.

I need to stop shopping (by myself)

I must learn how to ask my mum to bring me out to shop!!!

Sigh, thnk god mum's coming back on monday!

Oh yea,

Hope it'll be good.

But I can only pack on monday since I have no luggage @ home & all of them are in AU.

Hope my mum brings back a nice one for me to use.

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2011-06-14T00:15:00.001+08:00

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Do you know what's worth fighting for

2011-06-13T19:59:00.003+08:00

Recently, I've been thinking alot.

About everything, whether I should keep holding on.

But I think I finally came to a realisation that the possibility that it will have a happy ending is almost zero.

So yea, I think I'm finally ready to let go :-)

Oh & I'm damn freaking poor now lololol.

But i really love my hair cocktail.

But Ironmake doesn't really impress me.

Ok wdv~

Mum told me that I'm gna take another entrance exam wtffffff.

Ok so the one I took was for yr 11 (JC1), for 2012.

Meaning, I'm gna skip a year & be with all the 1995 babies.

However, I'm gna take a yr 10 (Sec4) for 2012, for the same school.

LMAO, in case I don't get into the yr 11 one.

Ok, that school is rlly prestigious & good and stuff, & yea, it's mixeddddd.

Really unsure of my life right now & I think I'm screwed for life.

Look @ my school work man.

& chem is getting freaking hard w all the QA & stuff.

Like whut?????????????

Bless me pls

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

It'll all get better in time

2011-06-09T20:52:00.002+08:00

Hi!!!

This is the world ugliest's girl posting over here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So today was a day out w Emily & Sabrina.

Feasted on KFC.

Rlly needed meat & that ttly satisfied my immense desire for meat.

After that was something borrowed, which was REALLY good :-)!!!

Definitely worth your time and money.

Had good laughs, & I teared at some parts hahah!!

& it really gets you thinking.

I learnt that if you like someone, just tell him your feelings, do not hesitate.

oh ya, but since i'm so ugly, i should just leave the guy alone.

K anyway,

good movie.

After that was shopping!!

HEHEH OMG A WALLET AT NEWLOOK CAUGHT MY EYE.

YES I'M GNA GET THAT LIKE SOON :-)

weee,

i need a small wallet for lazy days, to put inside a small bag HAHAHHA.

& my wallet is huge.

so yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Without a word, you gave me love

2011-06-07T18:16:00.007+08:00

Done practically nth but breathe, pee, eat, play clarinet & piano.

Sigh, i feel so useless!

Damnit.

There's still a million & one pieces of hmw and i'm not freaking doing them @.@

Going mad soon.

Hmm, there's movie this thursday w Emily & Sabrina though...

Gna have 18 chefs & then we'll watch something borrowed subsequently.

Haha, i feel awesome cuz i watched POC on the day it came out and we're gna watch something borrowed on the day it comes out too.

woohoo !!!

(ok the poster below says may 6 but actlly it's coming out on june 9 in sg!)

I can't play scales for nuts,

my embou is very weak O_O?!

& my clarinets needs alot of maintenance

oh yea, a new reed.

I haven't even bought it yet.

See, look at how much i procrastinate!
Thnk god there's sp tmr, & i hope i can find key oil somewhere.

I no longer know what I'm doing.

But yea, hasn't it been like this since forever?!

...

I just hope I don't screw up anyth.

I will be eternally grateful to the whole world if i can scrape thru Semester 2.

I have a very bad feeling, ok, more like i know that I am going to be unable to complete all my homework on time & that I'm probably gonna fail a million and one tests.

Sigh,

Two 'o clock and I wish that I was sleeping
You're in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is that I got to get next to you
Yeah I got to get next to you
Sitting here turning minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
You don't know that I got to get next to you

Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

I asked around and I heard that you were talking
Told my girl that you thought I was out of your league
What a fool, I got to get next to you, whoa
Yeah it's five in the morning and I can't go to sleep
'Cause I wish, yeah I wish that you knew what you mean to me
Baby let's get together and end this mystery, oh

Cuz i'll never be with you

2011-06-06T14:55:00.004+08:00

So my life is mundane & boring sigh.
Ytd was spent chionging hmw (LOL)
I only did 1 math & my long overdue YLW -_-
After that, i watched the notebook from 5pm-1.30am
lol i kept tweeting, fbooking, smsing, walking arund, doing all kinds of shit,
so i took very long to finish that movie LOL
But it's quite nice lah :-)

Ok, & i'm still quite irritated @ my clarinet.
The keys wtf!!
& i suspect that my embou is gone!!
Cuz i went to chem camp & like i didn't prac for about 5days (hehe, i didn't prac on sat & sun too...)
SO YAH D:<
I'M SO WORRIED.

K I better buck up & start on my homework.
Oh yea, a prank i played ytd ahahha.
LOL so basically I used red pen, purple pen, 0.7 & 0.5 black pens.
& it looked like i rlly cut myself haha.
So i took a pic & posted on twitter. Refer below.
LOL Click on it to view full size :-)
SO ANYWAY, LOL EVRYONE FELL FOR IT EXCEPT FOR TPOH?
He was like 'eh how come your cuts so evenly spaced out'
=_=
What if i rlly cut then he come and say that. So gl.
K anyway, can you notice my tears :-)?
See, i put in so much effort.

I shouldnt have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
like I didnt see it, like I couldnt see it
I shouldnt have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away,
I should have pretended I wasnt listening
like I didnt hear it, like I couldnt hear it
I shouldnt have heard your love in the first place

Without a word you made me know love
Without a word you gave me love
Because you took just a breath and ran away like this
Without a word love leaves me
Without a word love abandons me
Wondering what to say next, my lips were surprised
Because it came without a word.

Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore
And that you’re not here anymore
Otherwise it’s the same as before

Crazier

2011-06-05T11:58:00.001+08:00

WTF I THINK I'M GOING CRAZY.
GIVEN THE CURRENT STATE THINGS ARE, I THINK I'M GNA DIE.

First & foremost,
my hotmail account is blocked.
UGH, EMAIL IS SO IMPORTANT!!!

So, I can't sign into MSN/hotmail & hence I NEED A NEW ACCOUNT.
Created a new one (cherylcherelle@hotmail.com)

Along w that, I created a new twitter & facebook account using the new email.
Tried to import contacts, but i couldn't cuz my freaking acc is blocked.

WTFWTFWTFWTF.

Yea, so i have to build up my facebook + MSN from scratch.
Currently 0 contacts on MSN.

OMG MSN IS LIKE SO IMPT CAN?!
I can just die w/o msn. Not like i use it but sometimes it's rlly ESSENTIAL.

Secondly,
MY LIFE IS IN A MESS.
I haven't done anyth since school started & hence, i have a million & one pieces of homework left.
In addition to these, MY YLW (LONG OVERDUE) IS STILL UNDONE WTF.
& I ONLY HAVE ONE WEEK LEFT TODAY.
3RD WEEK'S BAND CAMP, 4TH WEEK'S SYDNEY.
& WHEN I COME BACK, THERE WILL BE LIKE TEN THOUSAND TESTS which i'm gna flunk really badly.
In addition, there's indoor test which i need to prac my scales real hard since i rlly can't do my scales, BUT MY CLARINET. THE KEYS. THEY NEED OIL. I DON'T HAVE OIL. Ok nvm, i can just go buy right.
BUT MY REEDS WTF. I BOUGHT 3 REEDS ALR, 1'S TOO SOFT, 1'S TOO HARD NO MATTER HOW I SHAVE DOWN, and the 3rd one is chipped.
HAHAHHAHA so funny.
zzzz gotta buy another reed & hope it's good for me.
ISSUE IS: REEDS ARE NOT CHEAP. EACH IS ABOUT $5 & THE SCHOOL HAS NO MONEY TO PAY FOR THEM.

THIRDLY,
My mum is in Melbourne with my brother, sister & dad and hence, NO ONE IS TAKING CARE OF ME.
I have to cook/buy my 3 meals myself & my mum didn't exactly give me alot of money...
Ok, the buying part is ok, i can just eat hawker centre food since i am a very frugal girl :-)
BUT ISSUE IS, MY LAUNDRY WTF.
I HAVE TO DO IT MYSELF. WTF X2
& i just came back from camp. WTF X3
Oh well, nvm. I can learn how to be a housewife.

LASTLY,
The person i love the most is the person i hate the most.

CONCLUSION:
MY LIFE SUCKS.

2011-06-01T21:46:00.002+08:00

I HATE FACEBOOK WTF.

So i was trying to prank people...
like posting their secrets/confess to them BUT ONLY THEY CAN SEE.
THERE'S A CUSTOMISATION BUTTON.

& GUESS WHAT.
IT FAILED & THE WHOLE WORLD COULD SEE.

...........
SORRY TO WHOEVER THAT I PRANKED. WTF

I rlly meant it as a joke.................................

I feel like crying right now wtf.

[edit]
K turns out my dear ngeesiang & stephorama pranked me.
THEY COULDN'T SEE ANYTH.
BUT YEA. AIYA.
WHATEVER.
K WHAT MATTERS IS THAT IT WORKS & THE 'SECRETS' ARE NOT LEAKED.
[/edit]

I'm falling to pieces

2011-06-01T07:15:00.009+08:00

29 May was spent doing CIP! Haha,
I did together with Patricia & Yuan Hui.
The experience was one of a kind =_=
There were like nice people, somehow more of the younger guys,
they smile & donate!!!
But the old people (like middle age ones) they generally ignore... ordo not want to give.
-sigh-
there was a nice old man tho!
& teenagers walao, best.
the girls... all refuse to give.
then guys i didn't rlly ask. lololol
& i'm rlly an introvert so asking for donations is rlly hard.
But after 4hrs (w a half an hour break)
finally managed to complete it somehow, & went off to clarabelle's hse for party :-)

Good food, awesome drinks :-), fun games
Love you girls!

I must be the cutest person on earth :-)

& so i'm rlly confused right now...
Like I have no idea what the hell I'm doing.
I know it's wrong but yet i allow myself to sink deeper...
Sigh.
I really don't know what to do, & yet my problems are the people who care.
So if people that care ask me "what's up/what happened?" I can't possibly tell them that they are the problems right...

Oh well, NCW's tmr :-)
3D 2N camp.
Hope i have fun
& i shall stop being unfriendly!!!
(cuz most ppl's first impression of me is unfriendly :o)

Take a bite of my heart tonight

2011-05-19T23:30:00.007+08:00

爱屋及乌, i find myself loving every single thing about you.

Caught Pirates of the Caribbean today and one word.
CHIO

The mermaids are damn chio k!
Following this will be a picture spam of them.
MUST CATCH PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN!!

Lead Mermaid- Syrena. The photo does her no justice at all. But she's damn chio!!

Other mermaids. All very chio too ^_^ Once again, the photo do them no justice at all.

Shall do a proper update in future :-)

I don't wanna miss a single thing you do

2011-04-06T09:33:00.002+08:00

So syf results was out yesterday...
Our clarinets section was REALLY disappointed.
No one would understand...
understand the hard work we put in.

We had SPS on tuesday/thurs (or monday and fri)
DURING THE HOLS WHEN THERE WAS NO BAND AT ALL.
And since this year, before the saturday practices, we had SPs evry saturday.

Yes, it bonded our section, but the hardwork that we put in,
we really wanteed more, expected more... and ... deserved more...

So hearing the news, we were all disappointed and we just emo-ed there.
Then slowly, we released all our disappointment and cried together as a section,
except for the pig for kept us strong!!!

Had merci chocolates to cheer up us, but it wasn't that effective.
Haha,
on a lighter note,
at least...
DHSSB IS A GOLD BAND.

so yep,
we were so close to the GWH, I MEAN, ugh,
we should have prepared more for our presentation (filing etc)
Evrythiing was mad messy.
You don't see GWH bands being messy, not knowing how to enter/exit right.
So yea,
DHSSB IS A GWH BAND IN MY HEART.

Anyway, Terence is still treating us to meatballs! joy :-D

But the journey was good.
I found friends, and a family.
I found DHSSB.

军乐队一家人！

You got me struck by the way you glow

2011-03-27T20:08:00.001+08:00

I hate myself for being sucha fool -_-
anw today was a rlly bad day.
Before i could get a sip of my chai tea latte,
it smashed unto \the ground.
6.20 flew away.

then i bought another one, and i forgot to request for it to be iced.
hence, another 6.20 wasted.
but managed to change it to iced anw hahaha.

but ugh, i touched bird shit, i got bird shit on my shirt and bird shit dropped on my bag.
THAT UNLUCKY.
and i lost my lit hmw ytd.
i wrote it.
and it just vanished/
wtf.

i hate myself for crushing.

What are words

2011-03-19T18:16:00.003+08:00

I'm sick and tired of evrything.
I find myself slowly changing, to become more true to myself.
I'm tired of trying to please evryone.

If you think i'm changing, well, i'm just becoming myself.
I don't wna be fake anymore.
I don't wna pretend i like people when actually i detest them.

I'll rather be bitchy, mean than fake.
I don't wna suffer deep inside anymore.
I don't wna feel like shit anymore.

I wna be true to myself, and to evryone.

I hate evryone right now -_-
and i'm sure evryone hates me too.
oh whatever, i'm not really a people person.

can't wait to leave singapore.
i doubt there's anything to hold me back.
i wonder if anyone will even miss me.
probably no.
since no one loves me.
i wonder if i even have a friend.

evryone's just drifting apart.
my whole world's just falling apart.
no need to wait till 2012,
my world is already in piece -_-

You know what, thnk god that i'm optimistic.
Sometimes, i just feel that life is so pointless and i don't see a point in living.
I have no goals in life, nothing at all.
No one loves me, evryone hates me.
So it's like what's the point of living?
ok maybe you won't thnk god lah, since you want me dead or smth.
but oh well,
i don't rlly care.

what's the pretence for anyway?
to please you guys?
for what.

can't wait to go over to australia and start afresh.

2011-03-11T21:08:00.002+08:00

So many things have happened since i last updated...

SYF's on the first day, 4april!
Jiayou dhssb!!!

Chem test results was really lousy.
14/20 -_-
but aiya, so far, i'm still getting A+s/As for all tests.
I hope i don't screw up any, bu the ones that i haven't get back cfm damn lousy -_-
oh wellz.

Today band was really ... a struggle.
My eyelids were sofa king heavy!!!

But i think i'm improving in my clarinet playing (i sincerely do)
which is good :-)

So the holidays are here, but it's basically, band, band and more band.
But it's worth it right?
:-) love my section mates.

Anw, jonathan was a rlly nice boy today :-)

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

2011-03-08T07:45:00.005+08:00

I'm biting very very hard on the clarinet.
Why so tense sian.
And now i'm freaking sharp.
I loosen but it's so hard to sustain it.
nvm, i shall keep trying.

& my running notes are still not even...
oh well, i'm not practising today.
my cheek muscles are very tense these few days.
shit, and i'm not practising on wednesday omfg i should have brought home to practise today -_-
ah sian max.

ok, i'm damn happy cuz my waistline lost 2" since uh, december?
or smth.
oh well, i can't believe it anyway.

But i'm rlly eating lesser than last time!!!

Today's a really exciting day!
Balloting results out :)

Hope we get a good day.
If it's early = we have lesser time
Later = more comparison.

lololol, what a fix.

Gna go out later.
Shall shop for shoes and maybe head down to kissjane.

Then Seoul Garden with Terence & ngeesiang.
and after which, study session w them at nat lib!
hope it'll be productive hahah!

--
what?
so the rumour that i like terence started cuz tan wen po wrote it on my correction tape?
& tan yiming posted the pix?

he probably got the idea from me, but it's cuz ____ say isaac, so i'll be 'oh terence~'
since they are the same class and she knows it -_-

& what, now evryone thinks i like him
sianmax.
he's my snr!!!

& ytd, the dhs twitter thing,
for dhs memories, one of the things i posted was
'Controversial senior-junior relationships LOL #dhsmemories'
but then it's true what. whenever a senior and junior dates, evryone will talk about it.

and what did jonathan do?
post on my fb 'Controversial senior-junior relationship wahahahaha what a joke !!'
wtf much -_- sian.

I am bound to you

2011-03-05T22:14:00.006+08:00

So these few days, the only things that has been on my mind's results and band.

So i just changed instrument and my,
my tone, sound, loudness, tonguing has a vast 'improvement'
i sound so much freaking better.

and i rlly needa control my fingers.
i need to get even notes.
i think that's my biggest like stumbling block right now.

and i hate my sweaty hands.
yes i do have them
and it makes me slip on the clarinet at times.

i rlly wna get better and syf is coming and i don't wna pull the band down!!!

but thnk god i sound much better right now.

Today was spent w band, then lunch w beloved section mates and study date w terence and ngee siang lololol.
i brought amath emath TYS and i couldn't do a shit cuz they havne't teach yet.

oh well, at least terence and ngeesiang taught me some math :):)

i'm gna get some retail therapy tmr or smth.
whr shall i go...
313!

2011-03-03T06:05:00.001+08:00

I fking hate my parents.
Since like 2 years ago, i've stopped having a maid.
which means, we do our own household chores.

& i don't lift a finger to do it, cuz i'm too used to a maid.
but wdv.

So, my dad hung the clothes up at 5++ today.
WTF?
WHAT'S THE POINT. NOW MY CLOTHES ARE ALL STILL WET -_-
srsly, use your brain can lah.
I NEED TO WEAR IT TODAY SO PLAESE AT LEAST HANG IT THE DAY BEFORE.

& you must be wondering.
WHY CAN'T I DO IT MYSELF.

yeayea, when i put evryone's clothes in (from the laundry basket)
and i do the whole cycle,
HE WILL JUST STOP IT WHY?
HIS CLOTHES AIN'T IN.
and he won't put it in until like the wee hours of the day.

AND YOU THINK I WNA FREAKING HANG UP AT THAT TIME?
WTF.

no.

last time they forgot to wash my clothes and i had to wash it, and dry it using a iron.
which was very tedious.

now he hangs up at 530 (CUZ I STARTED THE CYCLE YTD)
WTF?

so from now on, i do things my way, at my own pace and at anytime i deem fit.

I DON'T CARE IF YOUR CLOTHES ARE IN ANOT.

damnit, my dad's level of intellect amazes me greatly.

i know i sound like some bitch who has no respect for her parents, but srsly
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF EVRYWEEK IT HAPPENS.
wtf.

2011-02-28T19:32:00.002+08:00

MAD HAPPY :)

Today has been a really good day!
More results that way surpassed my expectations !!!
Thank God for evrything!
10/10 for Chem prac, 25/30 for math test.
Although 25 ain't that high, BUT HEY I THOUGHT I WOULD FAIL OR SMTH
AND ALL I WANTED WAS AN A (21)
so yep :)!!!!!

& things are less weird and awkward
and i can find myself slowly morphing into another person

but it's okay!
cuz i know that's who i rlly am :)

I rlly like band alot!!
I wonder what will i do w/o the y4s :(
gna miss them like siao when they're goneeeee.

oh well, gta study for chengyu later!!

Well, tmr, my lucky streak of A+ and A for test results will end.
Cheena CT tmr.
Will i be lucky again?
Next up will be lit.
WTF I'M SO GNA SCREW IT.
and finally, bio.
ugh!!
these 3 papers omg.
hahaha but oh well, i hope i can get an A :)!!

To some people:
get the fk out of my life -_-"

So baby call me crazy but i know you feel it too

2011-02-27T19:11:00.005+08:00

I'M GNA SCREW BIO.

ugh, spent the day learning the 51-100 chengyu hahaha!
loving twitter hmm. so fun talking to ppl.

i rlly want study dates hahhaa!
mannnn.
but not with ppl i can't concentrate with lah!!!
i need quiet, non-hyperactive friends!! :)

i think it's rlly obvious i like him -_- wdv.
it's just another stupid crush

I'll spend forever wondering if you know

2011-02-26T20:06:00.001+08:00

Switched back to blogger.
I guess blogger's the most user friendly??????

My results surprised me!
They're pretty good.
But i'm pretty unlucky and stuffs too.

So, here's my decent results and later i shall talk about how bad my life is -_-
i srsly need to rant.
LA compre 19/25
Bio SPA 10.5/12
Phy paper 17/20
HCL paper 41/55

pretty decent yea? imo.
but i think i'm gna screw up the remaining papers ( that i have yet to take back / yet to take )
screw bio! my essay got 2/6 ? WTF.
i put in so much effort into that essay assignment.

sian max, i hate math for not allowing us to use correction tape.
and i didn't study for ECM for chem -_-

&... i got caught for cheating during tingxie.
jonathan's handwriting was so small.
oh well,
My first zero i suppose?

& my clarinet playing keeps deproving.
Since i screwed my embouchure,
it hasn't been getting better.
in the tone, in evry single thing.
kept squeaking and sounded so weak.
i rlly don't like it.

I practise at home, practise in school but sighs, there are no results.
well, no significant results.

so demoralised.
i'll probably like drag the band down and evrything.

& i can't believe that i'm crushing again.
and once again, the feeling sucks.

major sad face :(

so ... on a lighter note,
I . GOT. 9/25 FOR A NON-GRADED COMPRE AND 19/25 FOR THE COMPRE TEST/.
LOL thank god.